Body confident or just confident in my body?

There is a lot of talk surrounding body positivity at the moment, so I thought I would share my feelings about my body.

My husband has already written a guest post on my blog a few years ago now, where he talks about my body from his perspective. If you want to have a read you can read it here.

After giving birth to three children, all of which were caesareans, it’s not surprising that my body is not what it was before kids.

The wound did not heal well with my first caesarean due to an allergy to the stitches that were used and this left me with a less than neat scar. I also know that it will never be flat around the scar and I suppose it is like a shelf that many people describe.

When I look back over the years my insecurities have differed but the one area that remains the front runner, is my tummy. After having three kids my main concern now is my mum tum and I suppose it always will be.

I have never been the most body confident person despite being an average size 12, but I was always okay with how I looked both in and out of clothes.

But this is where things get a bit weird. In my head I know the way I look isn’t bad, but sometimes when I look in the mirror all I can see is my stomach.

Obviously there are things that will affect what I see such as the monthly bloat I get right before and during my period, but this always goes.

The other thing I’ve never been happy with, even pre-kids, is my bum.

For me it’s always been a curse as I have one of those ‘sticky out bums’. It’s very defined and it always has been and always will be.

According to my husband though this is my best feature, so make of that what you will, but for me it’s something I have never liked.

Yet over the years it’s become less of a hangup and I’ve really learnt to just not bother so much what it looks like – otherwise I’d never wear anything nice.

A huge thing for me recently was getting featured on Boden’s Instgram feed. It was a picture of me in one of their bikinis whilst on holiday.

This might not seem like a big deal for some people but reading through the comments on some brands content can leave you feeling quite upset. Having your images there for all to see and under scrutiny, can be a scary thing. All of your insecurities are there and these same insecurities usually get picked up on.

The comments on this particular photo were absolutely amazing and it was great to see that so many people appreciated that a huge brand like Boden were using just a regular person to show off their bikinis.

The positive comments really made my day and all the things that I dislike about myself felt so insignificant when I read what people had to say.

Body confidence is not something I have ever truly had but I have learnt to accept the body I have and have learnt to be okay with it.

So whilst I wouldn’t call it body confidence, being okay with my body is what I am.

I have never been one who can stick with diets and exercise and I am not ashamed to admit that I love pudding and there is rarely a day that goes by when I don’t have it.

Food is life, something my eldest has inherited too!

While I may not look like your typical Instagram model and I may not have the body confidence of your typical Instagram model but I am okay with my figure that has carried three children.

Is there really anyone really that is 100% body confident or happy with their body?

I wont be getting called up for Britain’s Top Model any time soon but I would choose cake over fasting any day. I’m my own worst enemy!